More about life

 I have not been feeling so great, I have had this off-and-on sickness that I think is from when my sister had bronchitis. I attribute the "off" periods to my strong fighting spirit, when I muster all the power I can to just feel good, and force myself "out of it". But alas, the cells in my body cannot be fooled by my strong wishing - it is still there. I suppose smoking cigarettes isn't helping matters.

On a different note - I am still eating only raw fruits and vegetables. Ever since returning from the parents' homestead out on the farm, I have been making excellent food choices. I did visit the gym with Molly a few nights ago but could hardly be a star while there... Although I managed to run for a few minutes at a time on the treadmill,  though truth be told, it took everything out of me!
Had a wonderful home visit from one of the SGI's treasures of a member, Althea Willette, yesterday morning. She brought a lovely opening fan, the kind you see in China, with a beautiful print on it. It must span about 5 feet wide and 2 feet long.. perfect for placing in a bedroom window for privacy or to decrease daytime lightness for when I'm trying to sleep. How nice of her! We had a nice discussion about lifes' hurdles, the beauty of life, and of what it means to live internally as opposed to living externally. It is always more comfortable for me to live internally, where I feel more secure, more stable, and overall happier. The challenge lies in seeing what is OUT THERE, so to speak, for if you never attempt to break out of your inner patterns, you might miss out on some truly wonderful things that life has to offer. So when we chanted for about 45 minutes afterwards, I chanted for freedom of spirit, freedom of mind, and wisdom to break the chains that hold me back so much in my life.

For my Information Literacy and Research class, we just got assigned our Phase 1 Exam assignment. There are three phases. They are testing to see what we have learned and if we know how to conduct a research project the *right* way. We could choose any topic we wished, and so I took some advice and slightly changed it even a little, and decided on doing my project on what it's like to grow up in a lesbian family after a divorce. Since that is a bit vague, I might zoom in and specify the topic even more by focusing on the monetary changes that take place after a divorce - what mothers and fathers income is like and how that works out for them pretty much. The book I took home from MCTC's library is this called Growing Up In A Lesbian Family; Effects on Child Development, by Fiona L. Tasker and Susan Golombok.

It might a tad old, written in 1997, but still, it was one of the steps once taken in researching this profound topic. So today, I will spend a good chunk of time finishing up some reading on this among a few other books that also intrigued me from the library.

The books pictured above are the additional texts I checked out, mostly for leisure reading, but some will actually help me form some better opinions on my research topic.